15 years

ahead of my time? i really shouldn't be asking myself these questions. or should i? i guess there's no way of planning ahead. not in this life. it's like betting in the least probable event. it's the zero in the roulette. you just keep kidding yourself and the ones who love you. until the day it all crashes down on you. you know that day will come, sooner or later. i'd be glad if it's now. i'd be glad if i can pull through this. i'd be pleased if you'd understand. i'd be surprised if you'd accept it and dealt with it. and i would be happy if i could see you everyday by my side. we'll see in 15 years time...